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woo hoo! day 26

June 25th, 2013 (09:23 am)

I couldn’t resist today—specially with the shiny shiny scales—and weighed myself. It was daft to think so, but I’d still been doubting the efficacy of the eating plan. We are all so brain washed into thinking “hey, stop stuffing bacon into the skin of that chicken, in fact take the skin OFF the chicken because no one can eat fat like this and lose weight!” Even up to today I believed-REALLY believed this. I was sticking to the plan while still disbelieving that it works, and I can’t tell you how great it is to be proved wrong and all the (considerable) research (you know me and loving research) I’ve done on Low Carb eating was actually telling it like it is.

It shows just how dark a place my brain had got to where I had not only doubted the measurements I took recently but also these Weight Watchers scales that had told me a couple of days ago that I’d lost four pounds.

This is making a short story very long, but I expected nothing, therefore, when I stepped on the scales. In fact I really really thought that the weights it had shown before were simply nonsense, because I considered that I must be over the maximum weight and it was therefore pumping out gobbledegook. However it’s been my own brain that was pumping out gobbledegook and I think that seeing that I’ve lost THREE POUNDS in two days, (7 pounds since 22nd) has finally convinced me that I’m not imagining it, there IS hope and I CAN do this.

I didn’t/don’t think that my weight has led directly to my depression. I’ve been overweight before, and fat->obsese->morbidly obese in stages for 13 years so I’m not saying it’s the only cause. But I do think that losing the weight will help to lift the depression.

Every single thing else that’s wrong with me (and it’s quite a list) is due to one simple thing. Me putting too much of the wrong thing into my gob. It seems utterly suicidal to me that someone would allow themself to get into this position (after all, I’m very much at risk of keeling over at any time) JUST BECAUSE I eat too much. So I’m more than sure that with each pound that comes off, things will improve a little tiny bit each day.

after all—as my great Ancestor said often:-

“Every day in every way, I’m getting better and better.” – Frank Spencer

Yesterday;

Breakfast: hash as normal. Lunch: trout and a small rump steak. Dinner grill steaks and wilted greens, greek yoghurt and berries, quarter cucumber for a snack – 30 carbs in total

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Posted by: ejab62 (ejab62)
Posted at: June 25th, 2013 09:32 am (UTC)
Confused

Yay! Great! The best motivation there is!

Must confess that reading about your diet and what you eat, I was a sceptic, to say the least. Same as you - loosing wweight while eating bacon and stuff? Come on!
And then it turns out to be true! It actually works... Makes me rethink my own believes and even seriously take a look at what I eat. Because if you'd see me, you'd say, "Damn, woman, eat, for god's sake!" and I am the worst carbohydrate addict you can imagine. So your journey is slowly taking me on one. Go figure. Maybe carbohydrates would explain my anxiety and tiredness, for example. They really are bad.
It's the same old story - what you like most is bad for you.
Ah, isn't that life?

Keep going!!!!!!

Posted by: Erastes (erastes)
Posted at: June 25th, 2013 10:31 am (UTC)

It depends what you like to eat... if you are a real foodie and cook and stuff you might find it difficult, but I've always been "buy stuff and eat it" sort of person so to buy a garlic bockwurst from the shop and just to eat it as it is is perfectly normal for me. I do cook a bit now, but it's mainly just "bung things in melted butter and fry" or "make a nice broth with as few vegetables as possible while making it taste nice" or "cook a chicken and scoff with fingers"

But yes, you are right, we are taught, ingrained, into believing that the ONLY way to lose weight is to cut calories and to exercise more and that works, of course, but once you do research into how the body deals with fats as opposed to carbs as opposed to sugar then it's very revealing. Once the body runs out of sugar/carbs (same thing, really) then it will start burning fat to fuel the body and you'll only need more carbs if you do exercise - which again, makes sense.

If you miss carbs--which I don't, really--then there are low carb breads and the like, but it's just easier not to have them for my perspective as a lump of meat is every bit as good as bread for me and no carbs!

I seriously believe that they may be causing your tiredness. I was tired all the time - and particularly after eating, specifically pasta I just had to sleep, but now I'm a lot less tired, I don't have "yawning hour" at six pm every night and find I need less sleep without crashing.

I haven't followed atkins, or done the harsh 20 carbs/no milk/no fruit "induction" that atkins recommends, but am using just a low carb regime that I found on this page

http://authoritynutrition.com/low-carb-diet-meal-plan-and-menu/

And limit my carbs to around 30 - which is actually under what they say should be a regular weight loss carb intake, but it is a case of finding what carb level are you comfortable with, anything up to 60 is still capable of a weight loss of 1-2 pounds a week.

You've got nothing to lose (except weight, tiredness) so give it a go, I'll be there cheering!

I do miss fruit, but i have a box of frozen berries in the freezer which gives me a fruit hit with only about six berries - and my main drink, other than tea, is a home made lemon dilution with lemon juice and stevia.

Posted by: kcwarwick (kcwarwick)
Posted at: June 25th, 2013 03:45 pm (UTC)

I'm really glad this is going so well for you and I'm sure you're right that weight loss will help the depression.

Posted by: Erastes (erastes)
Posted at: June 25th, 2013 04:52 pm (UTC)

Thank you - it certainly won't hurt, thats for sure, because I'm beginning to feel trapped in a fat suit - - when walking starts to be a real issue, it's time to do something!

Posted by: Plutonian #2 (moreteadk)
Posted at: June 25th, 2013 04:12 pm (UTC)

That's so good to hear! And it sounds like you're happy with the diet as well and not wishing too desperately for things you're not supposed to eat.

Reading about yours, I'm beginning to wonder if it's a similar diet that my aunt has been on for the last few years. She paired hers with a lot of excersise (there's that word again. I swear, it's un-spellable!) and lost somewhere in the vicinity of 40 kg in half a year and she's kept them off. She's had her tummy operated (today, actually) to remove all the excess skin from her weight loss. I think she had help from a nutrition expert or some such when making her diet, and bread or really most things with wheat flour in it is one of the things she never eats anymore. When they go out she's sometimes brought her own special biscuits, because she's not allowed cake and such.

Posted by: Erastes (erastes)
Posted at: June 25th, 2013 04:55 pm (UTC)

sounds like it, I have to say - surprised she never said! :D she probably has nut-based biccies, with nut flour which is a treat we are allowed, but I'm not bothered about sweet stuff so I can live without them. I miss boiled sweets, but that's all.

as for exercise - I simply can't do it. My feet are so numb and my weight is so high that walking on the spot is difficult, although perhaps I should try and do five minutes a day soon.

I really hope that my stomach skin shrinks - it did last time I lost a massive amount of weight, but it was "Only" 19 stone to 11 stone, and this is much more than that - plus I was a alot younger then, and my skin was probably more elastic. I think I'll get some cream and start slathering it on, just in case!

Edited at 2013-06-25 04:57 pm (UTC)

Posted by: Plutonian #2 (moreteadk)
Posted at: June 25th, 2013 05:37 pm (UTC)
C25K

She might have said and I've forgotten. :) We've just got used to her being a picky eater with some things. As for the Unspellable, it'll probably help later on. The less you have to lug about when trying it, the happier your feet will be about it. Perhaps you could start with some easy yoga or something else that doesn't require a lot of jumping about. It's all about not starting out with more than you can cope with. Oh well, all in good time. :)

I tasted some brownies recently which was made with mashed kidneybeans instead of flour and chopped dates instead of sugar. It was surprisingly cake-like, although the consistency was bit funny. It didn't actually taste like beans at all, which surprised me.

Posted by: julian_griffith (julian_griffith)
Posted at: June 26th, 2013 03:29 am (UTC)

Nut flour biscuits reminds me of the time I tried to invent a recipe for lembas when I was ten. I did NOT get the almonds to pulse down to flour in the food processor!

Posted by: Karen (cerisaye)
Posted at: June 25th, 2013 08:23 pm (UTC)

Well done. : ) I am sure once you get down to a size when walking becomes possible you will find daily walks help fight depression. Well, it works for me anyway, despite the weather (actually I quite enjoy wild wet winter evenings, more so than when it's very warm).

Posted by: Erastes (erastes)
Posted at: June 25th, 2013 08:50 pm (UTC)

Thanks - I'm not a great walker, even when I was fit, but Sasha will make it fun - and I'm looking forward to going places that I haven't been, like stately houses grounds and woods etc.

Posted by: lee_rowan (lee_rowan)
Posted at: June 25th, 2013 08:35 pm (UTC)

Congratulations! I'm glad you got a scale, having some kind of way to chart progress makes a difference.

Feeling out of control makes me depressed as hell--and feeling out of control in your own body, on top of all the other crap hitting the fan? How would that HELP?

You have tremendous strength of will. You can do this!

Posted by: Erastes (erastes)
Posted at: June 25th, 2013 08:55 pm (UTC)

thank you - and yes, I was at the stage when I NEEDED to have proof it was working because measuring was too slow and my clothes are either too tight or too loose so I couldn't tell from that. Just staying off the scales is going to be key - once a week would be best, but twice is the most i should do.

Thank you, again. Long way to go, but I've made a start and the last weigh in was under the next stone mark, if you get me, which is always a boost.

Posted by: Ditto (stretfordditto)
Posted at: June 26th, 2013 04:53 pm (UTC)
FAT

Congrats on your weight loss. You made me laugh with this post. :D

Edited at 2013-06-26 04:54 pm (UTC)

Posted by: Erastes (erastes)
Posted at: June 26th, 2013 05:19 pm (UTC)

:d that makes me feel good!

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