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April 14th, 2016 (05:56 pm)

well, i’ve got the laptop out, which is progress of a sort. It’s been under a chair for about six months or so – i dislike this laptop intensely, as some of the keys stick and programmes take forever to load – eg chrome took five minutes from the click… i know i should take it somewhere and get some tekkie to buff it up,, but with the ongoing depression, the thought of finding a computer store, taking it in and then collecting it seems like an impossible mountain to climb. Hard to explain if you’ve never been there, but anyone who has will grok it. so I’ll probably just get another one with the royalty reserves.

as i tweeted a while ago, i do have a bunny kicking around in my head, or rather just a NAME of a possible book which has been rattling around looking for a plot – so i remain optimistic, or as much as i can being a veritable Eeyore.  my books often start with only a title, Standish, Transgressions and Tributary started that way. I need to pick a time period next, I guess.

So, how is everyone? i’m guessing there’s  a lot less of you out there, can’t really fuck off off the map for 2 years and expect people to just to waiting around, but if you are there, i’m looking forward to catching up on what you have been up to. I have very little to report, Sasha is fine, so is Lili, I lost both of the boys in the last year so that was a body blow but at least i havent rushed out to replace them. I’ll wait for Lili to go – she’s 17 now – and decide whether to get another cat. I don’t know, having a cat is binding, with sasha i could at least go places and visit people around the place but if it involves being away for a length of time, you can’t really leave the cat..

Well, i’ll keep it short for now don’t want to post once and then vanish again as i’ve done several times before. *hugs*

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Posted by: Plutonian #2 (moreteadk)
Posted at: April 14th, 2016 05:14 pm (UTC)
Tea

Well, even if you do vanish again, it's still nice to see you now and then. :)

Posted by: Erastes (erastes)
Posted at: April 15th, 2016 08:49 am (UTC)

Aw, thanks, dear!

Posted by: eglantine_br (eglantine_br)
Posted at: April 14th, 2016 07:59 pm (UTC)

I know what you mean about the depression. Makes the small daily things seem insurmountable. With me it really screws with organizing my time.

Good to see you back, and I am glad to hear that a new book is tickling at your brain. They reveal themselves as they wish-- sometimes a phrase or image, sometimes a dream, or a title. (I once had a picture in my head of a very happy young lady in a dress lying head down, face up on a staircase. She was absolutely fine this way, and it took years for me to figure out why!)

Posted by: Erastes (erastes)
Posted at: April 15th, 2016 08:52 am (UTC)

Thanks! And intrigued about the staircase!

Posted by: Cee (paragraphs)
Posted at: April 14th, 2016 08:41 pm (UTC)

Well, hello!

Posted by: Quiet desperation (lexin)
Posted at: April 15th, 2016 10:19 am (UTC)

It's good to see you posting, I was thinking of you the other day and wondering how you were.

Posted by: charliecochrane (charliecochrane)
Posted at: April 15th, 2016 11:16 am (UTC)

Hiya toots.

Do you have a local Rent-a-nerd? They will pick up and return laptops and perform miracles on them all for a reasonable fee.

Posted by: Ennui in Suburbia (irreparable)
Posted at: April 15th, 2016 12:24 pm (UTC)
Earth from space

Hello, long time no see!

I know what you mean about the depression. It's insidious.

Posted by: jenre (jenre)
Posted at: April 17th, 2016 04:40 pm (UTC)
dinosaur

Good to hear that you are still around. You're not the only one who has taken a back seat for a couple of years. I'm finding life on the back benches where I can heckle if I want a rather pleasurable experience :).

Keep us posted about the bunnies. I miss your writing.

Posted by: kcwarwick (kcwarwick)
Posted at: April 17th, 2016 07:08 pm (UTC)

Good to hear from you. I have just started writing again after a long depression-related break so I can empathise. I was lucky in that I have an excellent doctor and great support from the local mental health people. Keep hanging on there!

Posted by: Stevie Carroll (stevie_carroll)
Posted at: April 20th, 2016 06:38 pm (UTC)
And this is my wife by sallymn

Hello, you. I'm still renovating the house very slowly, but I have the ponies up here now and they take up a lot of time as well.

Posted by: sandra_lindsey (sandra_lindsey)
Posted at: April 22nd, 2016 05:47 pm (UTC)

Yay! So good to see you again!
Ok, I know I've seen you a bit on Twitter, but I dunno, LJ / blogs still seem a little more 'real'. Probably just me getting old!

I am kind of in awe at you for starting with the title of your stories. That's one of the things I find the hardest... and these days I'm turning into more & more of a plotter else I get too tempted to put it to one side & then it gets to be another little voice in my head telling me I'm useless & don't ever finish anything...

...from which you are welcome to infer that yes, I do understand about the depression. I find when it hits it's almost easier to do the big things than the small ones. Thinking of you, as always.

And I totally understand about not leaving the cat these days - I got in so much trouble with ours last night for being home an hour later than usual!

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